Thursday, July 12, 2012

Indeed the time exhausted in my creative mind is like stepping into another world.
And often times the line between fantasy and reality can be rather blurred by freewheeling desires.
The point of becoming absorbed and enraptured in my personal world is not even a thought, it happens almost nonchalantly.
My senses become intertwined with my fantasy.
I smell the foreign aromas and I taste exotic foods.
I feel the warmth of an alien sun beating across my face.
It's all too real, and yet it's little more than daydreaming.
Though, I am not merely captivated by a blissful hope, it's more of intense infatuation with a contagious desire.
I have fallen, even embraced this lie I told myself.
Can it be contained any longer in me, or am I destined to be forever absent from reality, but existing in perpetual fantasy.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

The brokenness was still there, and there were many tears, some pain, and some fears. Yet, to look forward to something greater everyday, having a heavenly Father who cared.  So much to give the ultimate sacrifice, all those burdens. Those tears and those fears, and all the pain from all those years. It means so much to know that He cares. He is Elohym, and to know that HE cares so much for me. I shutter to think what I could have been, to walk away from what was calling me from within. The one who created Heaven and Earth stopped by my heart, to bring to me this revelation. That what He did was for me too, that my sins had been absolved. I give these words in honor of Him who said I could be born again, my Father, my daddy, my Abba. I love Him. I thank Him.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

O my sweet when you are near I am completely comfortable.  When you speak to me, I am overcome with love, such as I cannot explain.  When we talk, I long to share my most inward thoughts, my secrets, to show an intimacy unlike any other.  Even the strongest man needs someone to hold him, kiss and touch him with a gentle confident hand.  O how I will miss  you so, the thought of not being able to see your lovely smile nor hear your sweet voice in my ear, sigh o my oh my. How it did serenade my heart in the morning as its harping did stimulate my heart.  Sigh oh my, the smile you did wear upon your precious face, o sigh my o my.... I could not dare to pass by, o you are such a desire.  I am weak that I should seek you night and day just for your conversation company.  I think of you, you are intimidating and yet..... still I do just to be near you beautiful.   Sigh o my... my... my... It is too much to take, I feel like I am leaving it up to chance, but such a thing is to gamble. So, how could I dare leave this up to chance.... No, far be it from me to do that, yet is it all too late.  How long I did wait, and still I have not told you how I feel when I am around you love, my friend. Instead, I leave this in higher hands, in the hope of faith that in time we will reunite, and finally dare to dance the most ancient of dances, the dance of romance, and of love.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Memories...sweet sweet memories...of days gone by. My heart is heavy, I just want to slump down in a corner and cry...my stubbornness won't let me do that. I feel like walking out right now...Even into the unknown. All my things with me, but where will I go. The weight of stress is upon me, heavily shown on my brow. If my decisions should cause everyone I love to fall away, even still the one who loves me will never fall away. I am His BELOVED and He is my desire. If all else should fail me, He WILL not. Oh how Jesus loves me, even in my mess, how he loves me. I know He loves. Maybe on that lonely beaten road He will meet me halfway to take me home to that sweet home. It's still going to be a blessed day

Sunday, February 19, 2012

I will not yield to uncertainty, nor be afraid of the unknown. Instead, I will walk above all waters whether raging or calm. Staring in the eyes of all my giants, I will declare to them, before the sun sets they will all be at my feet.