I used to fear that if my heart got broken one more time I would never have the strength to piece the remnants back together. I felt that way because in the past my unorthodox behavior for love and impatience caused my heart to be broken. You know I wish I could say that, If it's your fault it won't hurt as much than if it's someone Else's fault. Yet, I can't say that. So you put up guards and shields and you hide yourself. I hid myself in the Lord, so that neither I nor anyone else could do any more harm to me. In the past, I let people know things about my past, I thought I could trust those people and depend on those people. Just some of them turned away from me, and some ridiculed me. And yes it did hurt. I said never again. So I hid myself away in the Lord who loved me for me no matter what. I do this so that if a woman wanted to be with me she would have to be in the Lord first, in order to even find me. I did it so that people who come into my life won't affect me anymore. I trust that someone who is in the lord can see who I am, not who I was or what I did in the past, but who I am. And know that I am who I am by the grace of God. Need I say more. I focus on him for he is first priority everything else is placed afterward.